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Why I Hate My Brain

It’s Wednesday night as I’m writing this.

I’ve a long day with a sofa-ripping puppy whom I had to give a time-out to just now.

One of my best friends is on a plane to a different continent. We’ve lived 5 feet from each other for 5 years of college, and now…

I feel so lonely in my ridiculously quiet room. I miss noise. I miss company. I miss late night-chats. I miss late night chai. I miss college.

Anyway, I feel like my head is going to explode. But none of this is the point.

It’s Wednesday night, and I can say without doubt that Banned Books Week is a giant bust.

I’ve been a mess for a week or so now for all of the afore-mentioned reasons and I have a big fat reading block. Evidently.

I really liked what I read of Grapes of Wrath, the first book I chose, but I couldn’t read a lot of it fast. It really overwhelmed me. So then I decided to start reading Beloved  by Toni Morrison. And that really overwhelmed me too. They have so much to take in in every page; too much, in fact to ever speed through them. And then I realised what is painfully once you realise it: Banned books were banned because they overwhelmed people. 

So, I’m abandoning my brilliant plan of reading and reviewing books on Banned Books Week, and I would like to show solidarity to the cause by just saying this are books that clearly have the power to rip your heart to shreds, but they also have the power to make you think.

They paint portraits of lives that we don’t know about. These are lives that we may not want to know about because they’re sad and we can’t help but feel guilty. They are definitely lives that other people, probably the people responsible for these sad lives don’t want us to know about. Or maybe they’re accurate stories of terrible existences that want to stay hidden.

Regardless, these are stories that need to be told, for no other reason other than that all stories need to be told. Stories may hurt everyone, simply all of humanity, but they still deserve to be told if they will provoke dialogue. Do you agree?

I just want to finish by saying that I will read these books soon, and I will review them, for sure, despite the fact, or perhaps because of the fact, that they will be devastating to review. Just… not this week.

I hope all of your Banned Book Weeks are going well.

I’ve just started to read Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro. Let’s hope I get through it.

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